Your life is a gift. There never ever will be another you. God doesn’t do things without a plan, without a purpose. When He created you He knew what He was doing.
So, now you suffer and you wonder “what is the point?” The pain seems unbearable and existence itself feels heavy as you walk through a cold, dark cloud. “I cannot cope!” you exclaim. “I need out. I need the pain to end.”
You thought life was supposed to be a merry-go-round but all it seems to be now is a torture chamber. “Let me off” you cry, “I’ve had enough!” Suicide can seem to some, strangely enough, like a “ray of hope”, like the solution and resolution of seemingly insurmountable problems. But, of course, it is not.
What the modern world won’t tell you is that suicide is, in truth, self-murder. It is an act of despair and so puts the soul in serious danger of eternal perdition. If you are tempted to suicide you have to understand that this is not a real option. Do not entertain the idea of this false answer to your problems. Keep saying to yourself “suicide is not an option.”
We have unseen enemies. They are called demons. They want us to join them in Hell. They will propose false solutions and false hopes. These are called temptations.
The temptation to suicide is an attack on the virtue of Hope. You need to kindle the fire of true hope in your heart. You must realise that something really great, far beyond your wildest expectations is in store for you, if you just follow Christ and persevere through this very short time of difficulty and trial.
This life is merely a waiting room. It is not the main event. Imagine if you were on a cramped and dirty ship that was travelling to a luxurious tropical island. Would you jump overboard half way through? No, you would keep thinking to yourself, “I can’t wait until I get there. I will endure this uncomfortable journey and I will soon be ‘as happy as Larry’!”
The devil wants us to think about the present problem and he will magnify it and put it out of all proportion. No matter what you are going through know that it will all pass. In a thousand years, what will it matter? We all live with the wound of original sin, that is, we tend to the lower rather than the higher. We must look high in hope and aim for Heaven where we will bask forever in the light of God’s glory, beholding our Creator face to face.
A problem shared is a problem doubled, or is it halved!? Think about a good person who might listen to your story. This can make a real difference. If you are burdened by your past then find a really good priest (we can help you) and he will guide you through the best kept secret in the modern world – Confession.
“Come to me, all you that labour, and are burdened, and I will refresh you. Take up my yoke upon you, and learn of me, because I am meek, and humble of heart: and you shall find rest to your souls. For my yoke is sweet and my burden light.” (St Matthew 11:28-30)